I guess this is a goodbye of sorts but a happy goodbye, at least for me. I’ve used this blog, Unravel, to work my way out of the Christian religion for the last four or five years and well, I’ve finally made my way out of it.
After challenging, questioning, debating, blogging and incessantly thinking about the Bible, God, Jesus and Christianity for the majority of my 42 years of life, I have concluded, brace yourself, that all of it is nothing more than a human mythology. And this includes God which, I now believe, only exists in the human imagination.
How did I arrive at this conclusion? To make a long story short, it was through logic and reason, at least as far as I was able to utilize them.
To explain a little further, the last tumultuous step out of my faith began when I realized that there is virtually no convincing historical evidence to support the Bible. The gospels were written decades after their supposed events using word-for-word quotations and terminology. It would be impossible to record the exact words of angels, King Herod, wise men, Mary, Joseph, Jesus and a host of other characters even if they were written down at the time they happened. This led me to believe they were fictional stories made up at the time of their writings, a common fraudulent occurrence, even though they innately claimed to be actual.
The stories may or may not have been based on a literal Jesus (yeshua) or perhaps a composite of more than one. They may have also been based on real historical events with sensational details added such as angels, miracles and resurrections. But stories they are, with no written eyewitness account of them in a literary era where everyone was writing about everything else. You would think someone would have bothered to document it when King Herod killed all the baby boys, multitudes “from the surrounding regions” were healed, fed and forgiven, or there was an earthquake and darkness over the land when Jesus died, or when there were supposedly 500 witnesses of his resurrection….
But nope. We don’t have one single document to validate the gospels other than the gospels themselves. They are based on pure hearsay with fictional-like outrageous claims.
Researching further I found that there is also a lack of non-conflicting archeological evidence to support the rest of the Bible as well. In fact, the Bible is mistaken on quite a few geographical and historical details. Looking in the realm of archeology, it’s as if the nation of Israel didn’t even exist.
Sure, Christian sects existed at least several centuries after Jesus supposedly walked the earth. A violent and political institutional church also existed. We can thank them for the Bible as well as for the entirety of the Christian religion we have today.
Facing what the Bible actually says, I don’t think we will read a story of good news but of horrific evil. God cursed his creation, destroyed most of the population in a flood, demanded worship and animal sacrifices, commanded the brutal slaughter of women, children and animals if they weren’t his chosen race, ordered the murder of all the heathens except for the virgin girls who were taken to be forcibly raped and married, used endless warnings and threats through the prophets for his people if they did not worship him above all other gods, and then sent his son to be tortured and crucified because in all of his perfectness, he created a world filled with objects of wrath.
Jesus didn’t preach good news. He subtly glorified himself, preached God’s wrath, made endless unverifiable promises, used threats, manipulation and demands, pronounced impending judgment for all people or destruction for the world except for his devoted disciples. Jesus promised to return with a vengeance toward his enemies. If you don’t believe me, just read the Bible without ignoring or explaining away all of the scriptures our entire civilized world has been conditioned to avoid.
Studying ancient mythology, I found too many parallels between God, a messiah son, forgiveness through sacrifice and even human resurrections to believe that the God of the Bible is any different than any other god/savior legends. They are essentially all the same.
The gods have been used throughout history as fillers to explain the mysteries in life and as superstitions to find favor with life events that were out of human control. Now that science is progressing we know that things like sickness is caused from a virus and not from the punishment of the gods. A god is about mythology and enslaved god worship. I’m not sure how I ever thought otherwise, but weekly brainwashing can make us believe anything as long as we abandon reality for a fairy tale that we really want to be true.
With all of this said, I can understand why people would want to embrace a religious faith. Even if it is a myth, it can be an escape from suffering in reality. It can also relieve our fear of death and the understandable dread of nothingness after we die or reincarnation as a beetle in our next existence…. The Bible can provide a sense of security and purpose when we might otherwise not have them.
It can also be severely psychologically damaging to allow our entire religious reality to come crashing down.
In fact, I wouldn’t advise anyone to give up their faith unless they are in a stable position in life with a strong support system. I’ve used a Star Trek analogy to explain just how detrimental it can be to wake up.
Imagine being born into a family and community that was devoted to the Star Trek series. The subculture in which you existed centered around key figures, icons, themes and everything Star Trek. You were taught that all of the characters and events were real. You believed it was real and you became a part of the ongoing story.
You called yourself a Trekkie, you attended conventions every week, studied and memorized the scripts and adhered to worship rituals surrounding Star Trek philosophy. Those who didn’t believe in it were considered ignorant fools and you avoided these unbelievers so that they would not influence you in the wrong direction….
And then one day you woke up and realized it was all just a TV series.
All of a sudden your entire world seems ridiculously insane, to say the least. Imagine the insecurity, regret, distrust and even the terror you might feel. Anger, bitterness and grief are part of it. There is a tremendous sense of loss and therefore emptiness. There is no longer anyone to pray to and most of your friends consider you a threat. You no longer have “answers” to the how, what and why of life. And now you’ve got to face cold, hard reality pretty much on your own. Your sense and perception of reality have to be rebuilt from the ground up which is simply stressful. This is why I say to anyone heading this direction to make sure you’ve got support and do not underestimate religious damage.
Overall, I’m happy and confident to be out of the Christian mindset, although I imagine it will always subconsciously be a part of me one way or another. I can be thankful for everything I learned through it and for the beautiful friends I made from that element of my life as well.
It’s nice to be free and to be able to move forward, replacing contradicting mythology with an appreciation for the here and now… no longer grasping for a father figure that wasn’t there but developing deeper relationships with my loved ones instead… rationally and thoughtfully making life decisions instead of leaving it in the hands of faith… and finding hope, purpose, beauty and happiness in this world as opposed to the next which has no evidential basis at all.
As a representative token of my moving on, I started a new blog over at myunravel.com which is in full swing. I still talk about religious issues but I’ve broadened my topics to include politics, current events and other quirky thoughts I still have rambling around in this brain of mine. The blog posts are shorter, written more often and they are more personal. I didn’t want to transfer all of my subscribers from this blog because the new one has a different theme but I welcome you to continue sharing my journey if you would be so inclined.
I’d like to thank all of my subscribers for your support these last few years as well as for your encouraging and challenging comments and messages. I don’t know how I would have made it through this craziness without the rest of you, whether you could relate or not. So thank you and best of wishes for your own life journey.